Holding the vision of Becoming a Mum

My partner and I have haphazardly been trying for a baby the last 5 years, with no success (YET!), and despite having many moments where I’ve felt like giving up on my dream of becoming a mum, I keep choosing to believe it’s going to happen and the best is yet to come.

I will admit, I have felt like a failure as a women throughout my fertility journey, but overall I don’t see myself or the past 5 years as a failure.

It’s like my journey is helping us to lay a strong and solid foundation for an even better future.

When I think about my vision for our family, I can see how ‘trying’ for 5 years could in fact be a divine delay, or a divine intervention,

and time (amount unknown) is what was/is required to help create and prepare for that vision.

5 years ago, I had a yearning.

My thought; I want to have a baby and then I’ll be happy.

Easy. Simple.

Boy, was I wrong.

God/The Universe had a better strategy to deliver me my desires.

God/The Universe always has our best intentions at heart, so the greater plan for my partner and I so far has involved us healing our wounds, opening up our hearts, and working better together as a team first, to set us up for the longer term.

This growth wasn’t all sunshine and rainbows. It was painful and uncomfortable, but it's now starting to pay off and make us happier within ourselves and as a couple.

Now that we’re happier, I don’t doubt a baby will come to us, one way or another.

A question I find myself asking lately is; If my partner and I had a baby when we first started trying, would we have been good parents and would we still be together today? Most likely not.

My partner and I have grown and matured so much as individuals, AND as a couple over the last 5 years, and I can’t imagine where we’d be now if we became parents back when we first started trying.

Bitter, single parents perhaps?

As time went on, negative pregnancy test after negative pregnancy test, I felt resentful, broken, hopeless and alone, but now I’m able to see every step of my journey so far as a blessing in disguise. #grateful

I’m so grateful for the experiences, growth and opportunities over the last 5 years.

I believe when we ask, it is given. But the timing and the delivery terms aren’t always straight forward. It’s a practice of getting out of our own way, letting go and surrendering control, the how, and the timing over to God/The Universe, and allowing it to come.

A common message I hear when doing my Spirit Baby Readings, is “Please be patient. It’s going to happen, but right now is just not the right time.”

I personally know how hard this can be to hear, especially when you’ve been trying for years, but it’s an invitation for us to let go of control and trust that there’s a greater plan for us. Sometimes we need a reminder that having a baby doesn’t just involve us. At the least, it involves us, the father/donor/other parent, and our baby (sometimes two or more babies eg twins). Our spirit babies have a big say in the timing of their conception and birth.

When working with me 1:1, my clients get the chance to develop a beautiful, loving connection with their own intuition, as well as their spirit baby/babies, which helps them gain trust in the diving timing of their experience, which is ultimately for the greatest good of all involved.

During my 3 month 1:1 program we work on developing your communication with your spirit baby/babies so you can receive guidance around when your baby wants to be conceived. My 1:1 Program Clear Your Way to Conception includes two Spirit Baby Readings, which also provide guidance around when your baby wants to be conceived and/or born.

If you’re on a fertility journey as well, I hope you can get a glimpse of trust that your journey is happening for you, despite it often feeling like the contrary.

If, like me, you can relate to feeling frustrated, resentful, broken, hopeless and alone, because it’s taking longer than you thought it would, I hope you stay strong and don’t give up on your dream.

I’m cheering you on and wishing you the very best on your journey ahead,

Jayne x

Welcome lovely!
If we haven't met yet, I’m Jayne. I’m a Certified Spiral Practitioner, NLP Practitioner, Coach and Spirit Baby Medium. It's because of my own personal struggles with low self-worth and fertility that makes me passionate about helping other women who are walking similar paths.

If one of your goals in 2025 is to become a Mum, but you're scared to put it on your vision board, because you've been trying to conceive for a while now, and you're doing all the things but nothing seems to be fucking working, and you're afraid of feeling disappointed, yet again... I see you and acknowledge your frustration!

This was me last year. I didn't put one single baby or pregnant belly on my vision board in 2024, in hopes that if I focused on other things, maybe that would just magically happen? Turns out this avoidance method didn't work. 

But this year is different. In 2025, I'm shifting my identity from just wanting it, to actually becoming it, and going from just trying to actually being a Mum. I just updated my vision board and I can confirm there are cute babies and gorgeous pregnant bellies on my vision board this year! I'm going all in baby! Pun intended. 

If you want to start a family asap, without the pressure, doubt, fear, stress and anxiety, I'd love to invite you to join my free group fertility clearing session on Thursday 30th January. If you can't make it to the live call, you can catch the replay. Get all the info HERE.